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    老公为我保存了曾经写过的一段话




    2006 11月 
    北京妈妈家


    蒲黄榆 67623980 我的少年。
    我是个心重的人,存活的最大意义是一些称之为感情的东西。
    当生活像波浪一波压一波永不停息滚滚而来,我不得不重新审视它的意义。
    比如,蒲黄榆的老房子。奶奶曾经的家,我高中的居所。
    我以为,这样一栋老屋,会为我们一家人的感情一直留存,
    而生活需要放弃它换取生存,它就没了。
    消失的时候是痛,现在只记得当时有过感情的波澜,如何感受,却无从忆起。
    有过多少次感情经历,来时的喜悦与退去时凌迟般的疼痛,都化作一个公式。
    猪阁,是我成长路程上不可分割的一部分,代表我的青春。
    我已经懂了,它也是会离去的,但是我会为她努力到缘尽的最后一秒。
    今天和冷一谈论电话的问题,他迁了新的号码过来,旧的就可以废掉了。
    84517394,我的青春代码。
    其实一切生命都没有永存,都会消亡,只是大多数都没有寿终正寝的命运。



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    July 21 09

    最早改变我重感情的事件其实是很幼年的时期
    小孩子和大人比情感单纯而深厚
    小学对班主任有种很特别的依赖
    尤其老师们对你爱护有加的时候
    换班主任是件很痛苦的事
    而我小学最后3年里连续换了3个班主任
    只记得每一次都很伤心
    都很抵触新老师
    熟络信任之后总要经历再一次失去
    建立情感就变得越来越没有意义了

    所以~~
    对于重感情的小孩来说,
    感情越淡漠人生越无敌!
    July 05

    Eyes on me

     

     

    Whenever sang my songs
    On the stage, on my own
    Whenever said my words
    Wishing they would be heard
    I saw you smiling at me
    Was it real or just my fantasy?
    You¡¯d always be there in the corner
    Of this tiny little bar

    My last night here for you
    Same old songs, just once more
    My last night here with you?
    Maybe yes, maybe no
    I kind of liked it your way
    How you shyly placed your eyes on me
    Did you ever know
    That I had mine on you?

    Darling, so there you are
    With that look on your face
    As if you¡¯re never hurt
    As if you¡¯re never down
    Shall I be the one for you
    Who pinches you softly but sure
    If frown is shown then
    I will know that you are no dreamer

    So let me come to you
    Close as I want to be
    Close enough for me
    To feel your heart beating fast
    And stay there as I whisper
    How I love your peaceful eyes on me
    Did you ever know
    That I had mine on you?

    Darling, so share with me
    Your love if you have enough
    Your tears if you¡¯re holding back
    Or pain if that¡¯s what it is
    How can I let you know
    I¡¯m more than the dress and the voice
    Just reach me out then
    You will know that you¡¯re not dreaming

    Darling, so there you are
    With that look on your face
    As if you¡¯re never hurt
    As if you¡¯re never down
    Shall I be the one for you
    Who pinches you softly but sure
    If frown is shown then I will know
    that you are no dreamer